In this two-part series about how to know your purpose or your calling I'm going to discuss two different ideas

One is based on the negative

The next piece will be based on the positive

Jumping right in -

So, what pisses you off??

That's it

Nothing fancy about it

Now, if you're the type of person that gets tweaked by all sorts of stuff, that's not what I mean

What sort of injustice or movement or trend that whenever you see it or experience it bothers you to the core of your being?

A significant part of the reason Instigation Nation was birthed was due to what I saw for years, in and around churches

It started with something I still remember very vividly

Not because I'm still bothered by it, not at all

It's because it was the first time I tried to exercise resolution of a conflict and use the bible's wisdom to do it

What happened when I tried brought me to disillusionment loudly & immediately

Let's define that word first so we're all on the same frequency


a feeling of disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be

Source: The Google Monster

Now, the fact that I watched men I respected, and held in a place of honor in my heart CHOSE to defend wrong, no ... ignore the wrong was absolutely unbelievable to me at that time

These were pastors and pretty decent humans

I look back now almost 18 years and realize they were REALLY wrong but they made their choice

Shortly after that something very serious happened involving an older man and younger women that was handled nearly the same way... via chicken shittery

I was fucking pissed

That's the truth

That's when our involvement there ended

And on it went

Again, all forgiveness has been given. I'm sharing the story of how this came about

From so-called "pastors" taking advantage of their followers for their own side businesses outside the church to extremely unloving attitudes toward their own families to leaders or even regulars at churches being self-righteous pricks and putting heavy burdens on people, man, I've seen too much to let it rest

Now, something to understand about me:

I'm a born fighter, protector, & defender; it's how I'm built

I've NEVER been able to tolerate a bully or injustice

As a skinny little kid sometimes I kept my fearful mouth shut when I saw someone picked on but it bothered me deeply

Now that I'm a grown man with a moderately intimidating stare & a touch of psychosis I don't tolerate that crap, even though I'm still kinda skinny

Don't laugh, you're a little cray cray too 😉

The long and short of it is this, I've been sitting in churches and witnessing fake ass church folk way too long, taking notes on what I saw as misguided or whatever, and talking to friends over beer or wine about what I thought had to change

That's what I'm doing with Instigation Nation (18-minute Instigation Nation introductory video on YouTube)

I've been asked for a long time by people I meet if I'm a pastor

I've been told more than a couple times I "should start a church"

I don't believe I'm called to do that and frankly don't want anything to do with it

If God takes me there... fine

But I believe this is my route for now, and in some form, the long term

But I do have a vision of Instigation Nation serving churches so they can serve their people like Jesus would

Like, imagine this... IN will teach pastors how to be like Jesus. Lol, how funny is that?

I mean, we don't see too many that seem to understand how to do that

They're typically so full of... schooling that they forget there're PEOPLE sitting out there and moreover there are people DYING IN THE STREETS and marriages dying by the hour and kids abandoning their homes to escape the trauma

And too many pastors are talking about clothing and tattoos and sex and alcohol

To that I say, "What the fuck is wrong with you guys?"

Let's not forget the kids who grow up in forced religion and dogmatic standards that JESUS NEVER PUT ON PEOPLE

What happens when they graduate high school?

They deuce out ... FAST (they leave and they don't come back)

Actually, as soon as they can, they get drunk, hump the first piece of booty they can and get all tatted up... that's called a middle finger to the authorities who messed them up

And yet the pharisees will blame the parents that they've known for years or they'll simply lament over the "children being lost"

Ughh, gross

It's soooo cliche'

And that's why I am not the guy to start your next church

I'm the guy that sits with that kid when he's been out in the world for a bit and gives him hope that Jesus really is cool and awesome and loves him and isn't looking to slam his every move

I LOVE that part of my life

We will always serve people directly... NOTHING matters more than the souls of people


I believe there are A LOT of people out there starving for this message of freedom with their Creator

I believe a much fewer number are ready for this kind of message today

But that's going to change

As soon as more people stop being so freaking uptight and so easily offended, they're going to wake up to real life, the one Jesus knew completely

Look, I've studied and lived this stuff nearly every day of my life for 19 years, minus the 4 year bender I went on, but even then I held on to God... loosely (He held on to me tightly)

I know the pulse of the people who would walk with God if the people that claimed His name weren't such douche bags

Their pulse is weak and thready but it's there

Instigation Nation exists because I finally grew the courage or stopped disobeying God's call to speak up and put this message out there

For too long I let people suffer alone, disconnected from the real people that love Jesus, not the ones you see on Sunday putting on their weekly show... they do dress pretty though

Look, I know it's not all of them but it's more than enough to have millions of people say they believe in God but want nothing to do with His people (that's an outside link to an article worth your time, go to it when you finish this and it will make a lot of sense)

Facts are facts

And THAT is a major part of what we're disrupting

So, find that thing that won't let you go and bothers you to your core

You find that and you're well on your way to understanding why you were born

Because I promise you, God don't make no junk and you have something important to do and you can take that to the bank

Thanks guys, love you!


**PS. Part 2 is here - It's geared toward love and I'm going to give practical examples and a story or two

Ever heard motivational speakers (or anyone) say -“Fall down 7 times, get up 8!” or “Fall down 99 times, get up 100!”?

Forget the quantity, you know the phrase, right??


Watch this: How can I fall once but get up twice? See. Stupid

Plus, tell that to Sonny Liston after kissing Cassius Clay’s right fist

Man, I hooted and hollered for that motivational mumbo-jumbo for years

Today’s message is short, sweet and STRONG

Look, facts are facts … life can hit really hard sometimes

What if you could take one of those classic hay-makers of life… and STAY STANDING?

I know, I know, sometimes we get hit and it feels like a heartless robotic Russian mountain of flesh with a slave-driving wife

But I contend (see what I did there?) contend, like a contender in boxing, I know, clever, right!

I contend that if you use what I’m about to share, you can withstand ANY hit life levels your way and stay standing

Let me quickly define what I mean:

Standing, in this context, means you do not lose much steam, you do not slow down that much, you definitely do not lay on the couch and take the next stop at Depression-ville aka binge-watching Netflix when you have a life to live (that place SUCKS)

You also don’t get lost in motivational videos on YouTube for days or weeks, while forgetting all concepts of personal hygiene and healthy nutrition… that’s really bad

(I’ve been to all those places and more)

Essentially, you keep moving forward, no matter what

I’m making you a promise here and like I tell my kids you never say something unless you’re going to deliver on it… ever (like the parent that says, “One more time and I’ll …”

Yeah, those parents don’t deliver and their kids don’t respect them)

So, it’s totally possible and it’s easier than you might think


Any time anything happens we don’t like, especially the big stuff, we usually say something to the effect of “Why did this happen to me?” or “Why does this always happen to me?” or something similar to that (Heaven forbid the classic, “EFF MY LIFE”, ughh, that’s so poisonous to your health and wellbeing, don’t say that, ever)

Instead of that thought process, change it to this:

Okay, this is happening for me, I need to figure out how I can use it for my goals

This is a mindset or a paradigm shift

We are literally forming new paths in our brains to transform old or damaging thought processes

Most of us have been trained by our upbringing, the people around us, TV and our environment to look at things as “good” or “bad” and if we define them as bad, like a water heater going out or a flat tire, and we immediately take the victim position and believe that somehow God or the universe is doing painful stuff to us

It’s just a lie we’ve bought and become experts at

It’s totally changeable and in a very short time period, like, right now, if you choose to

Next time something hits you, catch yourself and realize it is happening for you and look at it from a different angle and find the leverage or the advantage in it, I promise you it’s there… it doesn’t matter what it is

This is what martial artists and wrestlers already know… use the opponent’s weight or force against them

This does a couple things:

For one, you’re instantly a victor rather than a victim, this breeds confidence, which is very important

Two, you’re taking control and deciding what that thing means in your life and how you’re going to use it instead of laying down and letting it determine YOUR life for you

That’s it! Do this starting NOW

Get it in your head however you can, write it on your hand, the bathroom mirror with a dry erase marker, put a note in your pocket, just do something!

Before you know it, you’ll surprise yourself and you’ll stop losing momentum every time something hits the finances, the health, the career or whatever goal you’re working toward

Then you’ll look at that mean Russian mountain of flesh and say, “Thanks, bitch!”

And instead of laying there feeling sorry for yourself, you’ll be winning for a change and that is something to be proud of! (like Rocky, below)

God bless America!!


PS Click here to see a short video I did on this

rocky american flag victory instigation nation stay standing

(How you will feel when you shift your mind)

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