In this two-part series about how to know your purpose or your calling I'm going to discuss two different ideas

One is based on the negative

The next piece will be based on the positive

Jumping right in -

So, what pisses you off??

That's it

Nothing fancy about it

Now, if you're the type of person that gets tweaked by all sorts of stuff, that's not what I mean

What sort of injustice or movement or trend that whenever you see it or experience it bothers you to the core of your being?

A significant part of the reason Instigation Nation was birthed was due to what I saw for years, in and around churches

It started with something I still remember very vividly

Not because I'm still bothered by it, not at all

It's because it was the first time I tried to exercise resolution of a conflict and use the bible's wisdom to do it

What happened when I tried brought me to disillusionment loudly & immediately

Let's define that word first so we're all on the same frequency


a feeling of disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be

Source: The Google Monster

Now, the fact that I watched men I respected, and held in a place of honor in my heart CHOSE to defend wrong, no ... ignore the wrong was absolutely unbelievable to me at that time

These were pastors and pretty decent humans

I look back now almost 18 years and realize they were REALLY wrong but they made their choice

Shortly after that something very serious happened involving an older man and younger women that was handled nearly the same way... via chicken shittery

I was fucking pissed

That's the truth

That's when our involvement there ended

And on it went

Again, all forgiveness has been given. I'm sharing the story of how this came about

From so-called "pastors" taking advantage of their followers for their own side businesses outside the church to extremely unloving attitudes toward their own families to leaders or even regulars at churches being self-righteous pricks and putting heavy burdens on people, man, I've seen too much to let it rest

Now, something to understand about me:

I'm a born fighter, protector, & defender; it's how I'm built

I've NEVER been able to tolerate a bully or injustice

As a skinny little kid sometimes I kept my fearful mouth shut when I saw someone picked on but it bothered me deeply

Now that I'm a grown man with a moderately intimidating stare & a touch of psychosis I don't tolerate that crap, even though I'm still kinda skinny

Don't laugh, you're a little cray cray too šŸ˜‰

The long and short of it is this, I've been sitting in churches and witnessing fake ass church folk way too long, taking notes on what I saw as misguided or whatever, and talking to friends over beer or wine about what I thought had to change

That's what I'm doing with Instigation NationĀ (18-minute Instigation Nation introductory video on YouTube)

I've been asked for a long time by people I meet if I'm a pastor

I've been told more than a couple times I "should start a church"

I don't believe I'm called to do that and frankly don't want anything to do with it

If God takes me there... fine

But I believe this is my route for now, and in some form, the long term

But I do have a vision of Instigation Nation serving churches so they can serve their people like Jesus would

Like, imagine this... IN will teach pastors how to be like Jesus. Lol, how funny is that?

I mean, we don't see too many that seem to understand how to do that

They're typically so full of... schooling that they forget there're PEOPLE sitting out there and moreover there are people DYING IN THE STREETS and marriages dying by the hour and kids abandoning their homes to escape the trauma

And too many pastors are talking about clothing and tattoos and sex and alcohol

To that I say, "What the fuck is wrong with you guys?"

Let's not forget the kids who grow up in forced religion and dogmatic standards that JESUS NEVER PUT ON PEOPLE

What happens when they graduate high school?

They deuce out ... FAST (they leave and they don't come back)

Actually, as soon as they can, they get drunk, hump the first piece of booty they can and get all tatted up... that's called a middle finger to the authorities who messed them up

And yet the pharisees will blame the parents that they've known for years or they'll simply lament over the "children being lost"

Ughh, gross

It's soooo cliche'

And that's why I am not the guy to start your next church

I'm the guy that sits with that kid when he's been out in the world for a bit and gives him hope that Jesus really is cool and awesome and loves him and isn't looking to slam his every move

I LOVE that part of my life

We will always serve people directly... NOTHING matters more than the souls of people


I believe there are A LOT of people out there starving for this message of freedom with their Creator

I believe a much fewer number are ready for this kind of message today

But that's going to change

As soon as more people stop being so freaking uptight and so easily offended, they're going to wake up to real life, the one Jesus knew completely

Look, I've studied and lived this stuff nearly every day of my life for 19 years, minus the 4 year bender I went on, but even then I held on to God... loosely (He held on to me tightly)

I know the pulse of the people who would walk with God if the people that claimed His name weren't such douche bags

Their pulse is weak and thready but it's there

Instigation Nation exists because I finally grew the courage or stopped disobeying God's call to speak up and put this message out there

For too long I let people suffer alone, disconnected from the real people that love Jesus, not the ones you see on Sunday putting on their weekly show... they do dress pretty though

Look, I know it's not all of them but it's more than enough to have millions of people say they believe in God but want nothing to do with His people (that's an outside link to an article worth your time, go to it when you finish this and it will make a lot of sense)

Facts are facts

And THAT is a major part of what we're disrupting

So, find that thing that won't let you go and bothers you to your core

You find that and you're well on your way to understanding why you were born

Because I promise you, God don't make no junk and you have something important to do and you can take that to the bank

Thanks guys, love you!


**PS. Part 2 is here - It's geared toward love and I'm going to give practical examples and a story or two

Keep Instigating,


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